disappointed

i'm very very disappointed and angry..
zq is very lazy.. and i hates empty promise.. i believe in action speak louder than words...
he always say it soo nicely but thing turn out to be different...
i don' t know how long i can take it... it going to hits my limit sooon.. i know its hard to find someone u really love.. i admit.. he is the one i love but he bad habit really make me very piss off and i asking myself .."can i take it for life time??"
just like what happened today. and this is not the first time the same thing happen .. this incident keep repeating .. again and AGAIN..
last few day he told me he might off on saturday and ask me where i wanna go.. he say he wanna bring me for outing. and i told him im working on saturday till 1.30 at pasir ris. then he say if he is working.. he wil fetch me and we go out.. sound nice right?? but like what i said earlier.. thing turn out to be differents.. and i already knew it on friday night when he told me he is not feeling well. so i didnt disturb him. let him rest .. till saturday afternoon he text me said we meet tonight.. and i know he pattern..once he sleep in his confortable room.. he lazy to get up already.. and i give him chance... i suggest to him.. he want me to go straight to his place after work.. and i go back in evening .. coz i know tampines got 969.. which will stop at sembawang.. and he say.. dont need.. he ask me to go home first.. and later he fetch me and my doggy to his place.. and ask me to text him once i reach home. and i do text him.. and he call and keep talking NOSENSE.. the nosense referring to " no conclusion" then he say lets discuss again once he woke up.. and i knew.. he will sleep till night time.. and its just happened like what i EXPECTED..and he call me when he get up.. and like what i expected. we're not meeting. he is too LAZY to fetch me.. again.. he say he is TIRED.. please la.. as compare to me. who is more tiring.. i have been doing report for the past few day s and only slept for few hour.. and last night i got class till 10pm.. reach home 11pm.. slept at 12am.. woke up this morning 6:15.. and go driving from 7:30 to 9am.. then rush to newton work from 9am to 1:30 and have lunch till 2:30. reach home 3:15pm.sleep till 6pm and go jogging .. see.. this is my schedule.. who is more tiring??????? i believe if u want to do something.. no matter how tired.. u will still do it.. if he really miss me like what he say.. he will meet me la.. i think i always available to him when he want to meet up.. so he already take me for granted.. coz i like him so i put him as top priority and meet him whenever he is not tired.. now.. it wont be the same treatment he get last time.. i'm getting busier next two weeks.. and i also damm disappointed already.. he is pushing to my limit...i got proj deadline on monday, test on wed.. the week after i got test and group proj deadline and TP too..
and every time he say it soo nice.. like if ur friend never send u home.and i come n fetch you.. ended up lehz. also never come.. i already to him.. dont give empty promise and giving ppl hope.. end up cant do it.. i will get damm disappointed one...
i like this song.. very nice and meaningful

I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs
I never needed pain, I never needed strain
My love for you is strong enough you should have known

I never needed you for judgment
I never needed you to question what I spent
I never ask for help, I take care of myself
I don't why you think you got a hold on me

And it's a little late for conversations
There isn't anything for you to say
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver
So look at me and listen to me because

I don't want to stay another minute
I don't want you to say a single word
Hush hush, hush hush, there is no other way
I get the final say because

I don't want to do this any longer
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say
Hush hush, hush hush, I've already spoken
Our love is broken, baby, hush hush

I never needed your corrections
On everything from how I act to what I say
I never needed words, I never needed hurts
I never needed you to be there everyday

I'm sorry for the way I let go
From everything I wanted when you came along
But I am never beaten, broken not defeated
I know next to you is not where I belong

And it's a little late for explanations
There isn't anything that you can do
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver
So you will listen when I say, baby

I don't want to stay another minute
I don't want you to say a single word
Hush hush, hush hush, there is no other way
I get the final say because

I don't want to do this any longer
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say
Hush hush, hush hush, I've already spoken
Our love is broken, baby, hush hush

No more words, no more lies
No more crying
No more pain, no more hurt
No more trying because

I don't want to stay another minute
I don't want you to say a single word
Hush hush, hush hush, there is no other way
I get the final say because

I don't want to do this any longer
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say
Hush hush, hush hush, I've already spoken
Our love is broken, baby hush hush

Hush hush, hush hush, I've already spoken
Our love is broken, baby