meide leave us...

i realise..when i reach certain age, i got to face different thing happen around me..


when i was in primary and sec sch.....got to attend friend bday celebration in their house..


during poly...friend celebrate 21st bday at chalet.. i remember almost every month i got to attend bday..haha


after i have started working.. friend ROM, wedding dinner..house warming.and recently..friend involve in accident..friend leave us...sigh..


i predict...in the future...after 30 yr old...i got to go...friend give birth- first month...friend lost job, divorce, family problem...etc..argh... why life soo complicated?? can it be more simple??





friday i was on mc...went to see doctor, eye check, trim eye brow...and go for class.. haha


i having sore throat, block nose, LS..argh...





yesterday was a very busy day..


first ..i lost my way at woodland.. haha funny right? actually is the design of the condo not good la..i cannot find the main entrance.


then we have order at sentosa, weather very hot..i got sun burn...finger skin peel off...very painful lor..then the schedule very tight..so greg drive very FAST...so i got car sick..haha first time i got car sick lehz..OMG...i feel like vomitting lor..


after work, i meet up with zq..haha i think i have spend most of my free time with him. haha


he fetch me around 10pm..and we went to amk hub for movie" confession of shopaholic." very funny and binbong..MUST watch..haha


before the movie, we spend time at arcade seeing one uncle catching the "toys" haha i think not worth it la.maybe im more practical person la..i rather go to shopping mall and buy the toys i like..then spending time trying to catch it..haha am i not romantic?? yes..i think i am la.. im not a sweet lover...but i expect my bf to be sweet..haha


after the movie, when we walk up to car park...the car park next next to us..got one couple doing *something* there. haha i was soo surprise and shock...HDB multi storey car park lehz.... not east coast park lehz.why couple choose this place to do it lehz.. haha


when i got inside the car...i cannot stop comments on it lor..haha but zq was not soo surprise by it.. he say very common in multistorey car park.. Oooo...i was like soo childish as compare to him. :(





so many *thing* happen yesterday.. got good and bad...





good thing


-first time zq come to my place fetch me..haha he dont really remember the way to my hse...but he make it.. yeahz...


- zq send me to my door step after the movie, i was quite shock when he park his car under my block..and i'm very stoopic lor..i still ask him " why u park ur car?" usually he will drop me at my block..but yesterday he go up with me to my door step..haha





bad thing


meide have leave us... he was on the chinese paper - wang bao..


i didnt attend his wake coz i think my bday celebration just less than a week and dont feel so right to go to wake...


we were in the same class since sec 3..he was sitting just behind me.. i always remember he got a beautiful eyes..very attractive..and very talkative boy..and he is a eurosian..chinese mix india...he is not dark...very tall built..


after we grad, we didnt keep in touch..but we did saw each other at causeway point..



we'll miss you...

meida-- first person from the right..

Penang Food

fishball noodle

ice kacang

chendol- my fav.. hehe

rojak- my fav..keke

pancake- very crispy wor..

fried osyter

laska-- penang famous food

wu xiang- very nice

cuttlefish kangkong

hokkien mee

it's me ^^

my elder sis-- this yr 30 liaoz.. 1979 ..but dont look like hor? haha

Monday always a tiring day..

Twilight dvd is available for collection but i’m so busy and no time to go borders ..
Actually i got one top on my mind which i think suitable for my birthday but i got no time to go far east plaza to try on it and see how it look on me..maybe i should drop by orchard on Wednesday to collect the dvd and went to far east plaza to try on that top.
This morning when daniel step into office, i act very busy and ignore him when he walk pass my work station. I know he is starring at me but i dont look back. After a while my phone rang, and it’s only 8am plus.. i dont think client will called me up so early, so i look at daniel work station, i saw him holding on the phone. Therefore, i knew he is calling me. so i walk away from my work station and don’t answer his call. After the phone stop ranging then i faster walk back and hang up my phone, so he will not get thro my line.

While i concentrate on the statement of the account, and he suddenly appear at my work station. Standing right infront of my desk...

He ask “ we’re still friend right?”

Then i say “ yahz”

He ask again” why yesterday you play M.I.A?”

I smile and say “ haha got mehz?”

Then he say “ u didn’t answer my call, didnt reply my sms?”

Then i act blur” haha is it?”

Then he spotted my phone and ask “ why u hang up your phone? U don’t wan to talk to me right? U know i’m calling you right?”

Then i say “ haha dont be over sensitive la, i just wanna have a peaceful Monday morning”

Then he walk off ... hahaa

Around ten plus, he called my line..oh shit..and i answer that call. Coz i thought is a call from client.

Then he ask” why yesterday u didn’t answer my call?”

Then i ask” why u call me?”

He say “ im bored”

Then i reply” am i your entertainer?”

Then he angry and say “ why u so attitude?”

then i reply “ why lehz? not happy ar? Piss off ar? Then bye bye la”

then he say “ chill chill..dont so angry”

after that i told him i’m busy and put down the phone.

I already make up my mind to keep a distance with him. So no matter how, i wont change my mind.

Erm.. zq didnt contact me lehz...erm.yesterday morning sms him..today also sms him..no reply..sigh..maybe he is busy with work bahz... he didnt online too...

Argh...my chalet very manfan lehz...
Friday night calvin n janet will meet me for dinner and chill up.. then kris n kelvin will come over after class.. i’m the only person no class on that Friday..and my lesson ending soon. After this month, no more class.. then Saturday will have bbq..but only invite small group of friends.

SUNDAY

today very tired....leg blister, DAMM heavy bag...and went out whole day..
this morning raining..very nice to sleep..but i got force myself to leave my bed and prepare for driving lesson at 8am... very sleepy...
after my driving, i went to woodland lib...waiting for janet..
her lesson just after mine..so she reach wdland around 1020.then we went to MOS burger for early lunch.. then study at lib ... got a hard time to understand the formula.. long time didnt touch on math question...after my O level.i dont have any math module in poly..lost touch with it..so now..got difficulties in understand and apply.... haha but i'll working very hard on this module..haha
on friday i already make thing very clear with daniel liaoz.. i told him not to contact me anymore... but..today..he sms n call me..i didnt answer..didnt reply...just ignore...

just now he sms me" are u gonna ignore me forever? we're still friends"
i still didnt reply him.. am i bad?? tml in office..i'll do the same too..ignore n trasparents...

today my bag very HEAVY lor...3 times heavy than my usual bag lor..
inside got 3 BIG stack of lecture note, practice Q, demo Question ..and my netbook... all i dump inside the big adidas backpack..whaa janet say ' wow..u go KL..u carry this big backpack ...now u bring it to lib..soo big lehz" haha
no choice la..
then dunno what happen..my leg got blister..very PAIN lor..bag heavy..leg pain..OMG.hell leh...
now shoulder pain..maybe my bag too heavy liaoz :P

sweet day

yeahz..today very sweet..haha
this morning i woke up at 9am plus, then kris come at fetch me at 11am ..then we went to White Sand Kopitiam for lunch. we order fish ball noodle...
after that we went to Ben house to do project..and realise his house dont have wireless..and we got 6 lappy lehz..haha we need internet to search for more info... so we change venue to Tampines..kelvin house. haha
we finished our proj discussion ard 7 plus and kris drop me at tampine mall..coz i meeting zq there haha he pick me up from there and we went back woodland together for dinner and movie..
haha he is a very patience guy...and very sweet too.. actually he have reached there first then wait for me... tampines traffic soo heavy and he is soo patience ..he drive round n round to wait for me there... erm..i find that..today he is very sweet to me when he talk.. haha sound very caring..haha i melting liaoz.... hahaha as usual...i make some stupid stunt and he keep laughing..argh..hahaa
we watched " coming soon".... oooo..very scary wor..whaha

ok..i got to be good girl liazo..must sleep early...coz zq sms and remind me liaoz.. haha
nite nite..

maybe im quite timid la..got scare by many scene... :P

PASTA DAY

OMG....today i having pasta for my lunch and dinner..argh..fattening....fainted..
haha
this afternoon, i see no Q at pasta stall.so i order they daily special, creamy chicken. their soup of the day run off so she replace a bowl of potatoes wedges for me..OMG..DAMM fulll and fattening.
then after work i meet up with irene, kim, and jia xuan...... their workplace around north side so they reach cwp at 7pm..and i leave office at 7pm lor..whaha so when i reach there, they already settle down at pastamania.. so i look thro their menu and saw they got new item.. MISO Mushroom. haha so i order la..must try new dish mahz..haha is their japanese pasta..

today at work so many thing cope up and so many investigation..haha when i do SGD matching, i realise there is one missing payment, 1mil over....so i look thro my SGD statement, i cannot find this amount..then i look thro USD statement and i SAW it... OMG...i heart drop immediately..soo BIG AMOUNT lehz..so i faster where goes wrong...i look thro the non checking account, ruhaini put up as SGD..soo our side is SAFE...then i look thro FR..and saw disbursement pass it into USD account..haha heng...is their side...hahaa not my side prob.. so i bring it to Langi..and she say she will do the adjustment..

in the afternoon, when i do the SGD recon.. OMG..cannot balance.. out by 74k..then i look thro my statement...i saw this figure.....soo i look their the FR again... OMG...disbursement pass wrongly again...should be SGD import....they key into USD import... haha heng again..not my side..then i bring up to langi again.haha i think she will damm hate me la..haha spotted so many of their error.. haha

then around evening, Ruhaini say to me " this dustbin very funny lehz...got a nice paper clip on it" then i turn around and take a look.. OMG...is my flower paper clip leh... then i say " huh..my clip lehz... who put there??" then Ruhaini laugh la..she dont even know this clip belong to me lor..
then i complain liaoz" must be that cleaner dont like me la....put my clip there..still got who will touch the dustbin lehz" haha

twilight DVD

i'm very busy over the weekend,
satuday i go to class, dinner buffet, service center
sunday, driving, working, shopping and movie..haha

i watch " he is just not that into you" ok..not up to my expectation...but still alright..
then i learn something from the movie, the person say " if a guy interested in you, he will make it happen"... sound soo true....

in the movie, if the guy wanna called the girl..he will call..if he really interested in her, he will date her out..find time to meet up ...

so i think zq just not that into me as he didnt contact me so frequent..and he dont really chat with me on msn... last time he will on webcam and chat with me on msn..but now..dont have le...
so he is just not that into me right? should be... and im a attention seeker lor....i need freedom but i still need ppl to care for me....

today is not a good day..hahaa
first, i overslept. haha coz my HP send for services and i dont have alarm and expected my dad to wake me up but he didnt...
second..when i walk to bus stop..i saw a big BLACK CAT...omg..is bad omen..whaha but i telling myself " good luck " then i open my bag..and cannot find my levis's card holder..oh shit..i forget to bring my office door access card..damm it..so turn back and go home take..then while i on my way back..the bus came...sigh...

something good happened today..haha i received a letter and it stated i got the chalet at paris ris..ahha woohooo.... its about 2 week from now...i got to plan...hahaa
maybe friday just for close friend chill up...then saturday invite polymates...
erm..who will be my close friend then?????
but pai sei lehz..26 liaoz..still celebrate bday..haha somemore at chalet..
just now i told edwin about it, and he still can remember what i say last time lor..he shoot me back " last time when u r 21 yr old, i ask u to open chalet, u dont wan..why now then u open lehz?" haha i also dont intend to celebrate wat..i just happen to get the chalet mahz..what to do..hahaa

omg..i tink LAU really another problem liaoz...jia let. my six sense tell me he is going after me...
he smsing and calling me everyday...... then now i got to report "what im doing " to two person.. daniel and lau..damm it
they will sms n ask me " what u doing? where r u? class finished? reach home liaoz?..etc etc"
then lau is asking me out for lunch...if i go with him..daniel sure....target him lor..jia let..
that time i remember i walk pass daniel work station and go straight to lau there..coz he help me buy chewing gum. then daniel stare at me when i walk pass..then after i come back..he email me and say " what u give lau? never give me :( " then i say i never give him anything then he call to my office phone and ask..OMG.... i cant imagine how he will look like if i go lunch with lau.. daniel very possesive bahz..im not his gf lehz.. crazy ar?

today after work , i went to collect my phone and pre order for twilight DVD..haha cool..soo excited..wanna watch it again...hahaa

feeling confuse....

Yesterday i make Daniel angry..hahaa i think he temper not very good la.. haha get piss off so easily..

After i went lunch with daniel and lau saw us and he become over friendly to me..weird..
he start to email me in the office, smsing me after work, called me after my class and go online when i reach home...OMG..... what the hell is happening !!! i just wanna remain LOW PROFILE in my office.

azahar -- my first RMIT friend, he is a malay chinese mixed... we only one module same class, and everytime he saw me, surely ask me when i wanna go arena with him..haha i also sooo long never go clubbing and no intention to go too... i agree its a good place to killl time but also a place to become more ugly...coz dark cirlce getting darker..haha lack of sleep...

Yesterday morning daniel come to office very early...and he come to my workstation n ask " are u mad at me?" then i say " no la"

then during lunch time, he come to my workstation again..OMG..all my colleague become very quiet and staring at us...i was sitting at my workstation eating nasi lemak with 4 chicken wing..haha coz they order in, one packet of nasi lemak with two otak and two chicken wings. then ruhaini dont eat chicken so she give her share to me..OMg..i got 4 wings lor..CRAZY lehz.. haha
then Eiwend eat finish and she saw me still eating..then she say " wow.. u still eating ar? dont like the usual u lehz" then i say " ya la.4 wing lehz...need more time" haha coz usually im the first person to finish my lunch.
then daniel come over n he say " wow.. why u get urself so dirty?" then i say " 4 wing lehz...got to use my hand la"
then he say" where u go after class?" then i say " dunno lehz" then he ask " can i meet u after class, i wanna see u" then i keep quiet...OMG..how come he ask suck question and all my colleague are open their eyes n ear watching over us lehz........

after class i didnt meet him la..i go home straight...
then he chat with me online...but then..i make him angry hahaa
before he go offline he say " if possible... see u in office on monday"
haha of coz he will see me in office la..unless he MIA la..whaha

then that lau also another problem....
haiz.....
he start to sms n call me.....
if someone really like u..they will contact u..and wanna see u more right?? i think should be in this way.... so...maybe this is a good way to measure who really treasure me more...then i shall make decision on it...

ok.time to go school le.. once i step out from my hse...very busy le..
class, sony ercission servic center, meeting elder sister for dinner buffet at york hotel, movie with my younger sis..
tml driving and working....

Tired day....

my HP gone case le..

i didnt know my sms cannot send out since last night...until today lunch time then i saw it. during lunch while i waiting for my drink then i take my HP and check on my message box. and saw 6 msg in my outbox.. omg...all the sms cannot send out. but very funny lor..i can received lehz..
this morning zq sms me and i reply him and after a while..he sms me again. so i tot my phone is ok la..until lunch time then i saw my two reply still pending sending in my outbox. hahaa

this morning daniel called me, he ask me " is it a MUST for u to go lunch with Annie and Jack? " then i say " no" then he ask" when u wanna go lunch with me at harbour front?"
then i say " erm..." then he say " dont always reject me" he sound sooo ke lian... then i say " ok lor..today lor"

so today i go lunch with him and met so many colleague when we on the way and everyone give us a cheeky smille..OMG....hopefully they just shut their mouth up...

when we on the way there, daniel ask me what did annie tell me just now. then i say " she ask me not to give u hope " then he say " wo zhi dao wo mei you xi wan"

after lunch, im soo booored... then i go find annie, but she is very busy..then i go find peter..he alos busy.. argh...

then Annie ask me go call daniel..she say he must be very free...he side volume drop..
then ok lor..i call up daniel...i say " hey..im very booored..entertain me lehz"
then he say " u r booored ar....ok...im not a good entertainer..but i try ok. give me a sec..."
then he look thro his email and read out those funny email.. haha then ..got one email is a song..but they change the lyric..to funny words..
then he really sing out lor..soo funny...

he is a nice guy la..i believe there were be a better girl for him..
erm...when we on the maple tree bus to harbour front.. lau saw us..then he talk to me..and today after i come out from meeting..i received his email...weird...

My rabbit pass away le....this day must be remember.... 9 March 2009.
This morning my mom bath for rabbit and afte that its started to rain heavily. My mom scare my rabbit get cold and faster bring in and blow it with hair dryer again. She found out my rabbit leg injure and apply medication on it.

Just now when i reach home, i walk pass rabbit cage and saw the rabbit sleep on the cage. I shouted sooooo LOUD..... then my dad say “ we knew it” .

When i finished my dinner, my sister ask me” let bring the rabbit to the vet” then i get confuse n say “ huh..bring to vet? For wat? they cannot save die rabbit la” then my parents got shock and say “ no la..havent die, she still breathing”

I asked my elder sister to bring it over to vet as i got project to do which is due on tomorrow. I called the vet and the person told me the clinic not crowded, can walk in.
Just now my sister called me and told me the doctor say the rabbit cannot be save. and the vet advise us to euthanize it so she will not be suffering.

Sob sob..i cannot get to see my rabbit...just now my elder sister asked me got any last word to talk to rabbit...coz she going to send it for burning.... sob sob..

Very sad day....

sunday...

Yesterday was a busy day, early in the morning Kris came and fetch me. we went to King Albert Park Mac for breakfast and went to school to do project.

I got class from 2:30pm to 5:30pm, then Kris send me home and i prepare and went to causeway point meeting zq, we have dinner and movie. OMG the movie is dammm dammm boooriiing lor..dont WATCH “watchmen” ..this show is super damm boooriiing and no story line.
After movie, we drive to jetty and zq show me his london pictures in his laptop. Then Kris very kanasai..called me and disturb me. coz this afternoon he ask me at night go where, then i told him i got hot date. Haha so he purposely call and disturb. Then when i reach home, he called me again, asking me wanna go out supper. Then i say cannot la..next day got driving lehz. i think he facing some problems with him gf bahz..need someone to talk lor..

Erm.i realise something very interesting lehz. i think zq and me quite similiar in certain way. I was like watching my old-self. He is quite similiar to the old me. Cause now i have change now.

Example, last time when my ex bf ask me what i like to order, i surely order the newly release or promotion meal. And yesterday when i ask zq what he going to order, he order the newly release, and he told me because its new release, that’s y he wanna try. SAME la...last time i also same like that...and give same reason too... next is the mp3 player...my sister ask me to buy a cheaper mp3 for her birthday present. she suggested me to buy her phillip, she say very cheap, ard 50 plus. But i dont think phillip popular la. So i plan to get an average one for her. Then my elder sis say budget 80. So i looking around for price 80 and below la. Zq keep recommend me Apple, haha tell u what...last time, if i buy mp3, i surely buy the most popular in the market which can make people jealous about it. Haha but now..i change le..i dont go for fancy stuffs liaoz. As long as the thing can work and quality not that bad. I will buy. Haha i wont go for high end liaoz..i go for average liao...

Last time, i shop for burberry, G2000, Topshop, Guess, Mango, Esprit etc.. Now lehz..any shop from causeway point la..as long as it’s look nice and presentable, i will buy...
I’m a person who dont express myself in face to face and i’ll express myself better in text. I think this also same for zq bahz. He say he care for me and he will get jealous..but all in text...haha when we meet up, he don’t show.. so i suspect ..he maybe the same as me, better in text.. so i think we are quite similiar because we share the same horoscope...

Later daniel wanna come over to go jogging with me, erm..i already make thing clear with him and he knew that but i dont understand why he still make an effort to meet me. he might be hurting himself. Later when we meet up, i will talk to him and see how is it. I know he is very sincere..

bad day

OMG..bad day bad day..
i LS ....early in the morning, first thing i do is..chiong to toilet..then before i leave my house...chiong to toilet again. haha all thanks to my sister birthday cake.
my mom bought her a coffee cake.. and i cannot take coffee, i always LS when i drink coffee. haha

haha im typical information counter, today i found out some juicy news...which is related to daniel.
some rumous about an incident at chalet last yr...actually i don't know the content but then he have confess everything to me when he realise i heard something about it.
i also have make thing clear to him, i told him we shall remain as friend. and he keep asking me am i angry with him, i say no then he say he can tell a person is angry, upset or happy. so he say he knew im angry. actually he is wrong la, i'm not angry la

then he ask me saturday am i free, i told him " no, i got hot dates" haha then he ask " who is the lucky guy?" then i say " u dont know him la" haha really lor..he dunno zq what..whaha

today raining heavily after class and also the first time kris drive in the raining day. he just got this license on tuesday. haha

messy office

today..is the third day since the incident happened... Eiwend and me seldom talk.. and she didn't join us for lunch too.
things is getting in my office and my life is getting complicated too.
Chern yang have send to SFS for training, this coming monday, Liza, Geok war and flora will go to SFS for training too. so we are short of staff sooon... work and duty is getting more....

tml is JEAN day... liza, ruh and me planning to wear jean tml.even though its not FRIDAY...but we DONT CARE...just WEAR it and HAVE FUN. haha

today is my sister birthday so i go back on the dot just to celebrate...

sigh...i really..LOST now...i really..dont know what to do and i dont wish to hurt anyone...
but daniel is doing stuff which might hurting him....
he really come to queentown every morning n take shuttle bus with me..
today he told me he make an effort to wake up early just to go work with me, then i told him " u zhi zhao, so dont blame me" then he say " ya..i zhi zhao" then i say " i never ask u to come, so dont put the blame on me " then he say " why must u make it so clear and its hurting me" then i say " i just wanna make thing clear"

bad monday...

today... eiwend and me ..never talk..
sigh..
all these happened..before LUNCH..
about 1245, i walk pass eiwend desk, then ym told me " your partner forget about post dated chq" then i ask " what is the date?" she show me..28 feb..which must be bank in by today. then i say " so what u want me to do now? bank in chq izzit?" then she say "ya" then i ask" then what eiwend doing?" then eiwend say she going to apply one on account, very urgent. then ok fine...i can help to bank in. anyway..only 3 chq..
so i went to photocopy machine n start to copy..after i have photocopy two chq.. eiwend come to me n ask " is these two chq already photocopy?" then i say " yahz" then she take the two chq to her desk. after i have finished copy the last chq..i pass it to her.
after a while, she come to me n ask " have u take the two photocopy chq? i only have one" then i say " huh..just now u have taken it from me, i only pass the last chq to u" then she say 'ok"
then i saw her walking to the machine n start to photocopy..then i ask " why u photocopy again? just now i already do it for u" then she say " i forget where i put"
OMG...she cant even handle a simple task well
i went to her place n see..then i ask her" have u put tgt with the first batch of CHQ?" she say " maybe..but i cant find it"
nvm...i try to cool down...
then i told her" do u remember what the two chq amount? just in case u have put them tgt with the first batch, if u really mix them up, your total amount will be out"
she sit there n think....then finally say " ooo.these two amount" then i say " ok..do take note of these two amount"
aiya..why must i spoon feed her...
then my face very black liaoz..then u know what..she show me black face lehz..
what kind of attitude is this..
she told annie n me to go lunch first, she will join us later..then u know wat..we saw her walking in the food court n she walk pass our table n go da bao food n go back pantry eat... WHAT KIND of ATTITUDE is this??
you are the one who did wrong thing and u throwing temper...
everytime she make mistake, she wont admit and still throw temper..like this how she going to learn more. she keep telling me factoring nothing for her to learn..but then..she cant even handle simple task..how she going to learn lehz...
after that..she never talk to me..i also dont bother.. and i feel more peace lor..no one come n disturb me...and keep asking me how to do this n that...

im very confuse now... zq told me he miss me..but then...i dont see any action lehz..haiz..then daniel keep asking me..i really dont know what should i do????? should i go for someone who like me more than i like him?? then from tml onwards..daniel wanna take shuttle bus from queentown to office..argh..usually he take from harbour front...but because of me..he wanna come to queentown.haiz..what should i do?????? confuse!!!!!!!