going back penang

yeahz..finally is the day i going back penang...

its have been 4 yr i didnt go back le.... the last time i went back was during my elder sister wedding dinner...

i already to accept all the negative comments from my relative... eg.." u put on weight" " more rounder" etc...

and i also be prepare to answer their nasty Q.....eg.." when is ur turn??" " do u have bf?" argh.....
today zq off...but..we didnt meet up...

actually we plan to meet up.. and but last min he feel tired..and lazy to come out..
so nevermind la..i call up kris for dinner.. he pick me up from woodland mrt station and we went to chong pang nasi lemak for dinner.. is my suggestion..haha.. and the place so hard to get car park.. but we soo lucky.. got one car going off so we can park there.. haha
as i said early.. i still put zq as my top priority during my free time at the moments... during my free time, if he wanna meet up.. i will meet him.. but then if he cancel it..then i will arrange my own activity...

one thing different between guy and girl is.. schedule.... guy like to call n meet up last min or on that day... but girl like to plan their schedule before hand...

i feel that zq n me dont have much time for each other... i was wondering if we have more time for each other.. will we quarrel??? like what he say.. we're similiar in some way..
some people say..." no time for each other is just an excuse.. is whether u want or not"
yes..i think quite true..... actually if u really wanna spend time with ur love one... u will put in effort to make it happen...

maybe zq and me just started not long.. soo his feeling to me not that strong yet... never mind la.. as time goes by.. i shall see how it progress.....

i believe in action than words...... that's why i dont like guy sweet talk.. if u wana be good to a girl...do it in action..not words....words without action is "bullshit"...

maybe i should start planning my activity for June... to catch up with friend and classmates to keep myself busy....

Passion RUN

wow.. i was soo surprise that i completed 10km..haha before the run.. i didn't train much.. i only go jogging around my area..and very short distance.. roughly about 1.2km :P i keep telling kelvin he got to walk with me.. coz i cant run..

this morning i take bus 168 to tampines..very fast..only 20 min.. coz zq hand swollen..can send me there.. so i met kelvin at tampines and we go there together..

when we reach there, we try to look for rachel.. and we manage to find them.. haha then while we waiting for the run to start.. rachel told me during her first run.. she walk alotz.. and took 3 to 4 hr to reach the finish line.. OMG in my heart...i was thinking.. 3 to 4 hr..sooo long.. fainted..
then from the conversation.. i get to know she every yr got take part in this type of events.. and recently she go training with her friend.. manage to run 6 km.. soo strong sia.. i was soo stress.. this is the first time i join..and the longest distance i run was 2.4km.. haha sigh..

when the run start.. kelvin and me run side by side.. we already say we will run together.. then rachel bf soo fast.. he have over take us.. then rachel also over take us.. i was runnning is slow pace.. haha coz i cannot run fast la.. used to run slowly..and non stop lor..
then kelvin say to me" how come i keep seeing ppl over take.. and we didnt over take anyone."
then ard 2 km..we stop and go toilet.. then continues to run again.. then we take drink at every drink station.. haha then we go toilet again at 7km.. haha from 7km to 8km..we walk..this is our plan la. after 8km.. we chiong to finishing line.. haha we saw rachel and her bf around 7.5km.. then we were soo surprise.. we thought they are very very far ahead liaoz..ended up..we over take them haha we turn back n say " hi " haha then rachel shouted." argh.. kelvin.. mun cheng" then we turn back n say " bye bye" haha then we finish it by 1hr 30 min.
hahaha soo overall the whole run.. we jog non stop from the starting point to 7km.. and walk for 1km..then continues run non stop from 8km to 10.4km. haha
i was soo surprise that my stamina is back..haha and i manage to run sooo long distance haha
after the run.. rachel say to me" u very fast lehz..u got train is it?" then i say " no la.this is the first time i run soo long distance.." and they soo surprise.
aiya.. i keep running because the weather getting hot.. and i wanna finish it asap... then can rest..and go back early.. then go meet zq.. haha
if i walk..and finish by 12pm..it will be very late.. and very hot..
haha and i got sun burn..argh.. very dark now...
after the run..i go home.. bath..change.. then go meet zq for lunch.. we have lunch at sakae sushi..i order katsu curry don.. sooo big plate.. very very full lor
then after that..i go his house watch SCV..and he sleeping.. haha and i laugh soo loud and he wake up. haha
at night..we have dinner together.. and zq see me soo tired.. and he try to drive me bad.. soo touch.. his hand soo swollen and painful.. and still wanna send me back.. soo sweet..
tml got to work le.. hopefully no muscle ache..

happy day

wow..today sooo surprise sia.... zq called me from KL lehz.. haha surprise to receive his call.. haha
today i wear spec to work..coz last night play game till quite late...ended up..eyes pain..very red...cannot wear contact len..must wear spec le..
oh no..i miss zq lor..haha i keep looking at our picture on my HP :P haha
i was wondering..do he miss tooo?????
during lunch time, Annie and me talk about past relationship.. and i told her.. i hope that zq is my last bf.. haha chern yang ask me why didnt go KL with zq.. then i say " he going with his friend la..what for i follow lehz" haha then he say " u can keep him accompany" then i say " we have plenty of time for each other" why do i say that lehz.. coz.. i think we can last..
just now edwin come n fetch me to my sister house to repair her computer.. argh..soo tired..just back from her place... haha i bring murfee with me haha coz edwin say he wanna see my doggy.. haha all my family member know edwin one la..haha coz he all our computer, network..etc..set up by him lor haha he soo good at those stuffs. and he stay nearby la. i always wanted to intro my sister to him lehz. they two same age lehz..haha but then..too bad.. no chemistry..
today didnt go for jog.. coz raining, the floor wet.. quite dangerous ...
if tml not raining, then i will go jog.. haha
as zq wish lor..i soo guai.. after work go home.. didnt go out happy happy.. haha actually i dont plan to go happy happy la.. i just disturbing him nia.... i feel happy that he did call me to disturb me that he is "spot check" on me. haha this mean.. i'm on his mind.. yeahz..

hamstring...pain....argh....

oooohhh... no.... i'm sooo bored... leading a " no life" life..
i'm VERY FREE now... argh.. what i going to do for next month???? nothing for me to look forward lor.. should i go for a short trip???? where should i go??? bintan? batam? malaysia?? haa

sigh.. i over train my body... and how suffer from hamstring pull.. argh...
this morning i missed the bus, missed the train..coz i cannot run... hanstring pain lehz.... i feel the pain when i walk...soo how i going to run??? hopefully it will recover by saturday..so i still can make it for the passion run on sunday. haha

yesterday my hamstring pain and i still went for my night driving lesson.. sigh.. coz i already book and dont wanna missed any lesson..need more practice.. i'm a attention seeker..so when i telling zq about my hamstring prob.. i expected him to show more care and concern.. but he didn't.. he still joking with me on msn.. soo i was very upset last night and didn't talk much to him and went to sleep early.. this morning.. i was telling myself not to be upset over small matter..trying my best to convince myself to "take it easy".. and zq is going to KL tonight..so dont wan to spoil his mood.. i think...i shouldn't have high expectation from him..so life will be more easy and mood will not get affected so easily.. will zq miss me when he at KL?? actually going oversea is a good way to test who is important to you.. example when u wanna buy some gift for friends.. who come to your mind first...the friend is important to you.. and who do you think of before u sleep..the person is the one u like...

today i went to harbour front " seah im" there for lunch with Annie and Yoke Mee, we order black pepper chicken rice. .. i miss the fish soup there.. maybe tml i will go there again..
when i waiting for the food.. Chen Wei called my HP..when i wanna answer it and he appear right in front of me.. haha now then i know he workplace soo near to me.. just opp PSA building.. haha. maybe next time when we can organise gathering dinner at VIVO with Edwin and Lilin.. but Lilin is getting married and she is doing her Master ...so very hard to meet up lor.edwin having school Holiday now..soo should be free lor.. haha last time in poly.. Chen wei, Edwin, Lilin and me..we're group member during yr 2.. i seldom talk to chen wei..coz he is a weird guy.. haha aiya..all guy good in IT is weird lor.. but then..i didnt expect he will keep in touch with me after grad.. and even plan for gathering dinner. haha i think to him.. i'm a slacker in school lor.. haha he is sooo GOOD in programming.. all lecturer know about him.. and ar.. he is TOP 3 student in whole course.. aiya.. the three of them are good in IT lor.. i'm the only one give up on IT and doing business course now :P last time all our project get dist... coz.. we have Chen wei who is good in programming, Edwin.. good in web design.. Lilin..good in database.. argh. what am i good in??? nothing lor :P and last time after yr 1..i appeal for tranfer course to Chemical Process and i got in.. i attend the class for a week and come back to IT..partly also because they three keep asking me to come back... they promise they will help me pull thro these three yr.. and leonard also one of them la. leonard keep forcing me to study lor.. he even come to my house early in the morning during study week. and force me to study ..argh....

i feeling sooo happy..

yeahz... i'm happy happy happy..haha
its sooo goood to be with zq...
u know what...
yesterday after his work..he come and fetch me to his place..
then while we watching show.. i told him..my friend asking me to go clubbing after her exam.. muz go celebrate for all the hard work we put in... then i ask him would he mind if i go..
then he ask me who is going.. then i say " janet" ..then u know wat...
soo surprise lehz..he say "ok" wow..coool....i really never expect he would agree to let me go lor...
hahahahaha then i ask him how come he let me go..he say " coz u need to have ur own activity...and u r going with ur best friend." wow..cool right? haha but got one condition la.. i must text him when i reach home :P
he is realllly......very sweeeeet.... love him.. haha
but i wont over do it la.. no guy will like their gf to go clubbing lor.. so i wont go there unnecessary la. anyway i'm not regular clubber what.. i'm just social clubber nia..
i feel that...zq is a person i can talk with him comfortable..no gap at all. haha i can be very open and tell him " i LS lehz" haha dont need to be pai sei with him..haha
Daniel very bad lor.he say now honey mood period..so zq will agree to let me go.. he bad lor..i tell him ar..whoever dare to say bad thing about my bf.. i will not be friend with them....
oh ya.today i will strike toto sia.. u know why..haha coz AMY talking to me lehz.. haha funny sia.. we in the same dept for 3 yr plus.. when we in the same section "invoice section" we dont talk to each other.. no common topic lor. then ar.. after that incident..more worse..everyone know we two CANNOT CLICK at all one.. then after that..i leave invoice team..i went to invoice settlement team.. and soo happy..dont need to see her FACE anymore.. haha now i happily working in settlement team.. and she stay in invoice team.. but today very surprise lehz. when i inside the rest room.. she come in.. and she smile to me.. then i smile back lor.. usually we two will pretend didnt see each other lor.but today she smile.so i smile back lor.. then she say " u having holiday now?" then i say " yuppie" then she say " is this ur last paper? then u grad liaoz?" then i say " no la.not soo soon..still long way to go..next yr then grad" haha then she say " very soon la." haha then after i come out from the rest room..i walk to my officer work station n say " today i can strike toto liaoz.amy is talking to me" haha then my officer say " wow..really?? she in good mood ar?" then i say " i think so lor" hahaa
i suspect ar...now she is bored with invoice team liaoz lor.. she have lose her power there after bee ling join in.. haha so she is thinking to join my team here.. that why she is making an effort to talk to me..... haha working in big company..must know how to handle with the politic and play with it well lor.. haha
today when im on phone with client.. then ruhaini pass to me two BIG MANGO..wow.. my FAV fruit..yea yea.. hahaa but i worry after i eat..my skin get worse.. haha

life without goal...

this is our forth pic..

Ooo..this week im fully occupied wor..whaha

monday-- i just back to work..soo very tired..and sleepy..then go home early n rest..

tues-- my first night driving lesson..OMg..damm challenging lor..heavy traffic flow..and i can't see clearly.. haha

wed- meet zq at orchard.. shopping and dinner.. haha this is the second time we went to town :P usually we always hang out at shopping mall near our place.. haha

thurs night... i went to zq house for dinner..OMG..soo pai sei lor.. haha first time go to his house..and also first time have dinner at bf house lehz

last time i don't go to my bf house for dinner ... i always ask them to come my house instead..haah coz i'm very shy person la.. this time i went to zq house..because i know zq is a homely guy..and he and his family have strong bond..which is very good... and he is enjoying when he at home.he can watch his fav drama on SCV..haha so i dont mind going there to accompany him coz we really dont have much time for each other..

haha and zq very sweet lor..he come and pick me up after work... and he very funny lehz.he dont know the way back to sembawang..haha luckily..i still can remember the road... i also not familiar with road one lehz... haha but ar..i see so many ERP..sigh..heart pain too...

today i check with daniel about the road from my office to sembawang ..he guide me by showing me the map from street directory....which he say this way is faster and no ERP... but i think that route might have traffic jam lehz..haha

i upload all our picture here..i was wondering..did zq download it??

haha no more exam..no more school..argh..what should i do during this two month?? no goal...

tireeeddddd

i'm dammm tired..........
first day back to work.... very tired..very sleepy..whole body ache....
so many email to read..... soo many follow up to do... soo many case to investigate.... soo many rubbish to clear...
i keep going toilet..coz im dammm tired...to face all those stuffs..argh. the WORSE is..i work OT . and so many ppl come and "suan" me when they still see me in the office after 6:30pm..argh..
stupid chern yang come over my work station and said to me " wow.. u r still here???" damm it..
then around 7pm... daniel come over my workstation n said " not going back?? why still here?" and he very bad..he say " hey i going back now.." argh... make me angry nia...
today Annie and Jack not in lor..annie standard one la...almost every monday take MC..haha jack should be at shenton way lor..so i went to buy lunch back to pantry and eat with yoke mee..
argh.tiring day......... very very tired.........

moooody day.....

our third picture..taken on friday after my exam.

bad moood bad moood....

its very hard to describle how to feel now...........

when the time i change my display pic..u should know there is something bother over me..

anyway.... not impt le.. i'll adjust my feeling asap.............

later going for mother day dinner.. hopefully it'll lighten me up....

oh ya i need to get myself a digital cam sooon.. my HTC Hp cam cannot make it la... the colour sooo ugly...

yeahz..OT paper over...and i LS..

oh yeahz...finally organisation theory paper is OVER...... hahaha..
this is a three hour paper..consist of 6 Question and we have to answer 3 question.. soo 1 hour for 1 question..
before the paper, i told kris..." erm..i think by 12pm i will step out of exam hall, i got nothing in my head now..." haha but i can't believed that i was sitting there 3 hr exactly...... OMG.... hahah
its really got a lotz of shit to write........
when i finish my question 1... i look at my watch..it was 1120....i used 1 hr to do one question..cant believed it..and my answer was like 3 pages sooo long......
in the exam hall, kelvin sit next to me and ben just infront of kelvin..haha we really surprise that our seat so close to each other... but kris very far from us...
after the paper, i sms zq...then i walk to student loudge to meet up with kris...coz he left the hall early..then ben, kel and rachel come in later..then we all went to food court for lunch....
when i order the food..janet suddenly pop out.....wow i got shock..how come weekday she in school..haha she say she take half day leave to study with friends..and her " shuai ge ge" sitting in front of her... but too bad..i cannot see how the " shuai ge ge " look like...coz he back is facing me..haha knowing her soo long but didnt know how her taste like.. haha this is the first time she so crazy over a guy..so a bit curious how is this "shuai ge ge" look like lor.. haha i think should be good looking la..coz her bf also very handsome mahz.. haha if this shua ge ge like her then jia let liaoz... i dont know how she going to handle it ..her current bf surely wont let her go...
er..i think the food not clean lehz..coz im LS now..... argh... damm it...
luckily tml is econ paper... im quite alright with econ... my supply and demand, money exchange quite strong..haha
but then the inflation, GDP...still ok nia.got to do more revision and improve on it.....
after the paper..all my classmates look soo tired lor... they all burn mid night oil study lor
then they suan me lor..they say " u r the only one look soo fresh and no dark circle" hahaa aiya.i need clear mind for exam wat..i wont burn mid night oil before my paper.. but i will wake up early to do last min revision...

Simple and Relax lifestyle...

my poor murfee.. he got hair one hor..just that a little bit short..

well.. i have been leading a simple lifestyle now..haha

Morning i wake up, bath, eat...and bring my doggy for a walk..then start my revision...till evening 5pm plus..then bring my doggy for a walk again..then take my shower...dinner and do my revision again.. haha simple n relax lifestyle...

this morning i set alarm at 8:35am... then send sms to zq to wish him good luck for his exam.. haha and the funny thing is..he knew that i purposely wake up just to wish him..haha and he ask me to go back sleep abit longer.. wow..he really know my pattern... but i dont know him well lehz.how???? ok.. well..after my exam..i'll put in effort to get to know him better.....

this evening when i bring my doggy walk around the garden.. then got two guys very bad lor..they say " hey..ur doggy no fur lehz" OMG...u two idiot ar.. my dog got fur lor..just that we trim it short lor... haha but i didnt say anything la..just keep quiet and ignore them.. haha

i think zq do miss me la.haha coz he sms me more than i expected.. haha maybe today he is not working..that's y got time to text me.... i was wondering....he really like me?? haha or issit becoz he knew than i like him so he try to like me??? ooh no....i'm thinking too much le..haha okok..dont think about it..and see how it progress......... but i'm curious lehz.....hahaa

oh mother day is coming... we have reserve the table at sakura@republic..

sunday sunday

sunday sunday sunday....
last night didnt sleep well... keep coughing... turn here n there ...cant sleep..argh...
this morning i went to driving.. make so many mistake..argh.. how come ar? dont understand lehz.. why am i so lousy at handling the car.....
after driving.. i just step out of the car..i received zq sms liaoz. haha.. he always sms at the right timing.. haha i still remember that time i went to KL with janet.. and i just reach SG and received his sms.. very "zhun" haha
i went home and take a short nap...haha i woke up..near to 2pm liaoz..omg...half a day gone le.. so tonight i got to study..to cover back..
erm erm...i think...zq know me better than i know him lehz... haha he always do thing which make me happy... and...i wondering..is he happy too????
i cannot be so selfish mahz.... must give n take..
sigh.. but im not that observant person lehz..i dont really know a person well lehz..
oh gosh...im soo sick..how to train for the passion run lehz... 10km lehz..siao liaoz.....
on 24 may lehz....only few week from now...FAINTED....

coughing...

this morning i went to woodland lib.. OMg..due to the swine flu..we have to scan our IC before go in.. therefore, many ppl Q outside there.. such a long Q....
haiz.. im coughing lo...and m face swollen le.
every time i cough.. ppl will look at me..OMg...i dont have swine flu la....
oh ya..soo sad... zq is the first person agree that im fat lor..
he say he know im fat but he dont mind...
argh... soo sad
no guys ever tell me before im fat lor............
sob sob...
nevermind la.is good to be frank..
i really put on weight le.....

labour day...

our second picture after some edit from photoshop haha only edit the lighting la

ooh.... no..

today my progress very slow..only cover one chapter.. haha

i really cannot study at home lor..waste time... i cannot focus.. my bed keep calling me....

haha today i meet zq for dinner...

we went to sunplaza sakae and follow by sembawang shopping center...

i just realise zq soo skinny but big eater lor..haha he order so many food lehz.........

haha then we happened to saw his sister..

omg..he sister same age as me lehz..but loook soo much younger lor...

she look like 22 or 23 yr old only......

argh.. i look soo old as compare to her....

but my colleague all say i look younger than my age lehz..and she look even younger.......

tml i will be going to lib study lor..cannot waste time le..must finish it asap...